I'm a lush...well, that's what someone near and dear to me told me I was today. At first I was just thinking that she was inferring that I drink too much (which I thought was strange because I don't)...but then it came out that her definition was "...someone who enjoys that little bit extra of the finer things in life..." Hmmm...I suppose that's true...nothing like a lovely Lindt Ball...or a pack...nothing like a scoop of delish chocolate gelato...or three...What she said really made me realise that, being a lush, I was not only 'enjoying the finer things in life but instead, I was gorging on the finer things in life. That's why I've got my second arse. Why have a regular latte when you can have a large...of course I'm gonna upsize that KFC meal deal...why buy a small bag of crisps when you can have the large one instead...
The fact is, I can't stop at one. I keep eating after I no longer feel hungry, just because I love the taste and feel and emotion associated with the food. Yes, I am an emotional eater...give me an emotion and I'll want to eat. Why do I do this...where did it come from??? I'm not sure...but at least I am aware of it now and instead of eating away any feelings I don't want to address, I'll now stop myself and feel the emotion, try to understand it and teach myself a better way of handling it.
I know it's not going to be fixed overnight and this'll be a long 'one step at a time' process...but heck, at least I'm staring to see the big picture.
So, here's to the slow unfurling of the voluptuous goddess within and goodbye to the fat.
Annie
TVGW
11 comments:
I don't know, Annie...I thought a lush was a TART! LOL!
I am a bit of an emotional eater too, but one of the biggest problems I have is I just LOVE food. I love eating. But I have had to learn to love being active and fitter more, and that was a struggle...
If you visit my blog and have a hunt through the links, there are some girls who look at emotional eating and what it means to them...
PS - have you considered going to Jarrod to get a scan? He will work out how many kjs you should be eating a day and how many you should be burning per day...I am going on Monday 2nd April if you want to come along! He is FANTASTIC, the only reason I have started to lose weight again!!!!!
Hi Annie,
I got your link off Crankybee's blog. I love the way you write and had a few giggles at a couple of comments you made.
I am also 36 and a Sydney girl (Liverpool actually) but have been living in New Zealand for 19 years now and love it.
I also have a blog,
https://rachelsweightchallenge.blogspot.com
I find reading other peoples blogs really helps with motivation as it seems there are thousands of us out there with the same problem (go figure).
Hey gorgeous Annie. Welcome to blogging - it's great to see another HBC girl.
Looking forward to Sydney xxxx
Hi , came over from Cranky's blog ... I've gotta love yours cos you have seashells.... I love anything nautical.... good luck overcoming emotional eating... most of us have that particular problem. bugger!
Welcome to the blog-world, and all the support you will ever need on your journey. Take care and keep blogging :)
Hi Annie,
I am here on advise from Crank and, unlike my thoughts towards her love of mock meat, I am not disappointed.
Welcome to blogging!
I think all fat people emotional eat, some moreso than others. For myself, there was a reason for my fat (not that I admitted this to myself for aaaaages), and having it there was about preventing something (sorry, all v cryptic!). I started to deal with my shit and now I no longer eat crap or have mad cravings and the weight is now falling off, it's been amazing. So, is your fat doing something for you? What's the positive?
Hi Annie - I love your style - the shells are great and I'd love to think of something like that for my first effort. It's great to catch up with you via the blog. Looking forward to trying the new HBC sometime soon. Cheers, Jane in Noumea.
Hello there! Came over from Crankybee's blog..shhhh dont tell her I actually read it tho.. ha ha...
welcome to blogland. You will love it..
Oh and from one lush to another...that habit can be broken... I have done it...
Good luck on your journey...
Just yell if you want to chat...
Cheers Nannette
I have really enjoyed reading your blog.. fat or not.. you are a very interesting and unique person. Your shell is just that, a shell to live in in this lifetime. I am also trying hard to fight the urge to stick things in my mouth that have no business there (food I mean lol). I hear ya babe.
any updates gorgeous girl? How are you going? Fill in the gaps babe! Love Luds xx
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